a word from heart...

it's been awhile isn't it...well what can i say..i just lost in time..in my fantasy world...that i again crush my heart...hahahah..pe la ko merepek ni labu..well..alhamdulillah..dpt juga aku menyambung pengajian aku..wah...tahap skema ke 100 nie..
anyway..aku katg s.alam..doing my degree..lucky me m been choosen to take operation mgt...accept wif open heart..unfortunate for..things when well..yes it di..when m busy..m fine..but when m not..it is total killing me..total killing me...u were left wonder alone in the dark..yes sir..yes madam..that is what i fell everytime m not busy doing anything..the feeling of lost n confuse just swollow my inner body..it is total killing me...shoot rrrr...cant do anything..i choose my path..n may ALLAH noe things well than me..anyway..we been told...every single thing happened..happen for a reason...n dude..m tellin' y'll.. i did found the reason..deep in my heart..i thank ALLAH the most merciful for what HE has been given me...babe...it is total opportunities for me that i noe realize what i've been done in my life so far...huh..sometimes certain things i did..i just sort of wasting my time my talent....haih ceh talent hangguk ko..hahahah..anywa...now dat i noe...i think i better change my life style...totally change it..huhuhu..i pray everyday dat ALLAH forgive my past and i hope for better future and the day after end day...for my parents..my two brothers...xoxoxoxo for them always.....well..this could be the end...today i cry..i let go everything inside me..let the hurt feelings fly away...far away from me...let the holding back go off the hook and please do not return again..ALLAH....YA ALLAH..m asking a little strenght for tomorrow n the later day so the day after end days...i wish i could be tougher than i look..but u noe..u can always hide it from people..but when u r alone..everything would be too fragile and easily broke...i had enuf of holding it inside...today i let go...to ALLAH i tell it all..to HIM i refer everything..to HIM i trust..n to HIM i let HIM decide for me...thank you ALLAH...i luv ALLAH..u r the only one in my heart forever....forever...forever...my pray is to die with me saying YOUR name and smile..the last look i have would be like seeing a long lost miss lover...yes ALLAH..forgive my sins..i made mistake...noe i could not return back..YOU noe better than anyone else...mak ....abah..my love for you will never die..as the end of the day comes..my love for you both would never change as i will try all my power to protect both of you from any harm...adi...ariq...my eldest n younger brothers..m savior...my only knight i'd admire....you guys are the best family members i ever had...u listen..u care..we laughed...we cried...we share...we are like the three stooges..1 for all and all for 1...there could never be another perfect moment unless there is both of u...my family have cheerish my life..my total strenght..my weaknesses...my medicine for good n worst...thank you all..thank you....ALLAH...thank you...m i have the time...i will write about my countless friends..close or not..never mind..but a person i called friend...is what i will write later in this dear B of mine..........



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